pfieuw.... it seemed ages ago since I've updated this journal... I'm so sorry that I don't update my journal so often. To tell you the truth, I wanted to do that many times, but al the things that happened on school, at home, just took a lot of time from me... also, to those I ho are waiting for some drawings from contest and such, they will come. I just need time, that's all.

the next paragraph will be some ranting I think... meeh, I guess it's just interesting to those who are interested in my background-story... because, lately, it has been full of pain...

anyhow, I'll not tell you details... it's just, the f*cking stress I have... and all those things that give me stress... gnah, I must try to stop thinking!! I'm always hunted by al kinds of different thaughts that just make it so darn hard to behaive normal... both my mental and physical health are suffering. because of the stress, I've now almost constantly each week several head-aches, My neck is blocked, and I feel a deep pain just below my heart. and mental... pff... it just seems all so pointless... all the time when I start feeling better, always something has to go wrong that brings me back just were I started... and I'm just so tired to continue working up to a point were I just can fall again...

Is some rest, peace and quietness just to much to ask???

luckly for me, I've a chance to have "funday" once per month with those are mine moments of pure disctraction and relaxation... just doing the things without WORRYING!!! I always can recover so mutch from these days...

yesterday was our last one, and it was soo much fun!! XD this time, she came with the train to antwerp, and there we first went to the wieuw... like, the biggest artshop in the benelux. it's because of her that I knew that place existed... and yesterday I bought for myself the "A" box (72) copic ciao... good for 256 euro's... sure it was a full crap of money, but they are soooo worth this prise I also bought some other equipments.

then we went to my place, playing with her wii (yes, she took it all the way to my village just so we could play with the wii) And it was soo much fun!! we played spyro, and I was cynder! gosh so much freedom in that game!! unbelievable.

then we watched spirit, and made some art. Then we went to the store for some pizza's and baked them at home... yumyum!!
then we went back to the station, and had to say goodbye.... well, just for a week, cus next saturnday, I'll go with her and her mum to lille!! XD I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking foward to that

meeh, I think I said enough here!!

greetings


and yours truely,



Arsillyd